I don't know why I always feel that I need to apologize for the lack of posts. I know so many of you want to know how I'm doing and when I don't post, I feel like I have failed you. But on the other hand, I know you do not expect to hear from me all the time. It's a battle I have with myself on a daily basis.
Anyway, I need to catch you up from my last post...
I was hopeful that the beginning of last week was going to be good, but it wasn't. I had indigestion really bad and it kept me from eating or drinking much at all. I didn't really start feeling some relief from the indigestion until this past Saturday. I still feel it but it is tolerable now. I'm not sure if this will be a continual thing with each treatment or if it was just a one time thing. I vote for the latter!
Friday, I felt well enough to go to my company's employee appreciation picnic at Perche Creek. It felt good to be outside and visit with my coworkers. I was drained by the time it was over, but so glad I went. There are many very wonderful and caring individuals at my company and I so appreciate your concern and support. Very uplifting for me.
This journey has been a roller coaster of emotions and quite challenging. During the week of treatment when I am at my worst, I feel despair, loneliness, anger and fall into a depression. The constant sickness makes me emotionally weak and I can't seem to keep my spirits high. Gradually as I start feeling better, I feel hopeful, joyful and loved. Then the cycle starts over again. I'm just glad I come back out of the depression.
Tomorrow morning is treatment and I am feeling uneasy as to what this new drug will do to me. I would appreciate prayers for my emotional well being this coming week.
Love to you all
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