Chemo and Other Dates

Today has been a good day for me.  I went to lunch at Pickleman's with a friend.  I wanted to get that in before treatment; just in case.  I got a pedicure...green can you believe it!  :)  I will have dinner with my family tonight and then the boys are going to my sister's to sleep over before heading off to Big Surf in the morning.  I'm so excited for them...actually I'm more excited about them stopping the countdown.  That has been going on for a couple of weeks now.  ;)  No...I love to see them excited about things!

My chemotherapy starts tomorrow morning Tuesday, August 7.  I'm anxious to get the ball rolling.  I don't want to think anymore about how I will be feeling during my treatments; I just want to start and see what happens.  I have a class first to talk about chemo and the various side effects and then I am given my first dose.  I'm not sure how long it will take, but it sounds like it may be a long day.

I forgot to mention that Saturday, August 4 I went to see a wig guy (not sure what they are called).  He is from Jefferson City and the first wig I tried on was the one, at least color-wise.  I go back there Saturday, August 18 to have it cut and styled to suit me.  He said he will probably need 2 hours, so I hope I am feeling okay for a daunting day like that.  I'm kinda excited about it though.  More excited that insurance will cover a wig because they are not cheap...$325 for the one I am getting.  I should go the route my youngest son suggested.  This morning he said, "You don't need to buy a wig.  We could make one out of dried spaghetti noodles and then paint them brown."  Then he started laughing.  That is my little inventor and comedian!!  I hope to have the courage to wear fun hats and scarves also.  It's not in my nature to be blingy or standout.  Subtlety is my game.  Maybe this is another test for me...to come out of my shell and be known, however the attention is drawn.  :)

I plan to donate my hair to Locks of Love before shaving it all off.  I don't want it to go to waste.  I grew it out for a very long time.  I will be having a party with a few select friends on Sunday, August 19 to support me while I do this scary transformation.  I would love to invite all of you and throw a big party...I did think of that early on...but when I really thought about it...it scared me to have to be that vulnerable with so many people.  I don't think I will process it like I need to if so many were around.  I would like a slew of uplifting prayers for this day.  This part seems to be the most traumatic to me right now.

Hopefully, I will feel up to it to talk about tomorrow's treatment.