The Sinead O'Connor Look

I have been wanting to post about my party for some time, but I was emotionally drained that evening and was still trying to recover on Monday.  Then I got busy running errands Monday and today trying to prepare for the inevitable downtime of the chemo treatment the rest of the week.  Sometimes my posts can take a couple of hours to put together, so that's another reason this post was delayed.  Your patience means pictures!!!

Believe it or not, I really had a great time at my head shaving party.  I had some great friends there to support me.  There was lots of laughter and tears.  13 ladies were in attendance and many in spirit for this occasion.  We started out with snacking, visiting and introductions.  Then I opened the many gifts I received.  I now have several hats and a scarf to choose from when I am ready to strictly go that route.  Very cute hats and the cards were sentimental and hard to read aloud...I'm not a good crier and talker at the same time.

Next came the shaving!  My stylist started by taking sections of my hair and putting them into ponytails.  Then she started shaving off each section one at a time.  I, of course, had some hesitation, but this is what I was there to do. My anxiety was building each time she took off a section.  I wondered what the others were thinking.  I kept it light and offered some humor to ease my thoughts.  When my hair was completely gone, I went around the room to let the ladies rub my head.  I didn't realize at the time I had this ugly bump on the back of my head.  I felt ugly when I saw it and wondered what the ladies thought when they saw it, but then I stopped myself and thought they may be wondering what their head would look like if it were bald.  Basically, I turned the lies into truth and I was able to move on and not dwell on it.  Thank you God for your presence.

I have been wavering as whether or not to post a picture of me bald.  I want to be vulnerable during this process and show the way things are.  Soo....here I am....

When I got home that evening, the boys just stared at me while I had my wig on.  I had a huge headache from crying and from the tension of the wig, so I went into my room shortly after coming home to remove it for awhile.  I didn't want to just take it off in front of them since I knew they were scared about this process.  After a couple of minutes, Kalen started to walk in my room but John stopped him.  Kalen said "What?  Is she bald?"  John said with a chuckle, "Yes, do you want to see her bald?"  Kalen, of course, said yes right away because of his curiosity and Aden actually wanted to see me as well.  Here's a picture of that moment...

They felt my head and then Aden had enough of that.  Kalen kept rubbing my head.

Later that evening I let Kalen put all of those duct tape bows on my head like I said I would.  He enjoyed that greatly.  I was his art project for the night.

He's all about the bunny ears when pictures are being taken.

I am doing well even after a couple of days.  You wouldn't believe how easy and fast it is for me to get ready in the morning!  I am bald most of the time at home and throw on my wig when I go out.  I think that is all I will share for now.

There are blessings in everything difficult.